mood: blank
listening to: Mozart
Umm... It was fun?
Nothing really special. Met a couple of new friends. We pretty much just hung out.
Went shopping.
Me and Nikz are having this convo bout our life is soo much like Hana Yori Dango.
I'm Yuki and Nikki is Makino.
We even have an F4. *falls off chair* LMAO.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Oh seef?!
mood: sleepy/lazy
listening to: Nada playing Gustav
We're supposed to go to seef with Nichelle (michelle). But she aint coming so its just Khalid, Mae, Renz and his friends.
I wonder if we should watch Narnia. *thinks* I want to. Its Narnia II.
listening to: Nada playing Gustav
We're supposed to go to seef with Nichelle (michelle). But she aint coming so its just Khalid, Mae, Renz and his friends.
I wonder if we should watch Narnia. *thinks* I want to. Its Narnia II.
Hope?
mood: hoping?
listening to: ruri no ame - alice nine.
Shit... I think I'm getting a little desperate. I dunno. I just feel like he wants me but hes too scared to admit it... I just can't help but hope now. I just want.... I just want him. I find this completely pathetic of me but I do. I really do. -__-
I know... I know he'll just turn me down flat like all the other guys. But can't I hope. I just started hoping a few minutes ago. Gah... fuckin asshole.
listening to: ruri no ame - alice nine.
Shit... I think I'm getting a little desperate. I dunno. I just feel like he wants me but hes too scared to admit it... I just can't help but hope now. I just want.... I just want him. I find this completely pathetic of me but I do. I really do. -__-
I know... I know he'll just turn me down flat like all the other guys. But can't I hope. I just started hoping a few minutes ago. Gah... fuckin asshole.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
meh bday
mood: pretty much depressed in the inside.
listening to: sabi - sugar.
Umm... what shall I do for my birthday? *thinks*
June 26th... so far away and yet so close.
Last year I threw a fit cause well, cause they forced me out of the house for a surprise bday party when I already know where we were going. The people that came weren't even my fucking friends. Faisal, Kai, Salaman? those are your fucking friends Nasreen. Not that I mind. I didn't have friends then. Umm... it was fun. Bowling and Pizza is fun. Embarrassing me by putting my fav jrockers on the cake with toothpicks. Funny guys. I got seriously pissed when the guys were calling them fags. I just wished Gackt was there to tell you off. If Nikki was there with me. We would've kicked your asses.
What would I want to do? what do I want for my bday?
I dunno and If only it was that easy to get it.
listening to: sabi - sugar.
Umm... what shall I do for my birthday? *thinks*
June 26th... so far away and yet so close.
Last year I threw a fit cause well, cause they forced me out of the house for a surprise bday party when I already know where we were going. The people that came weren't even my fucking friends. Faisal, Kai, Salaman? those are your fucking friends Nasreen. Not that I mind. I didn't have friends then. Umm... it was fun. Bowling and Pizza is fun. Embarrassing me by putting my fav jrockers on the cake with toothpicks. Funny guys. I got seriously pissed when the guys were calling them fags. I just wished Gackt was there to tell you off. If Nikki was there with me. We would've kicked your asses.
What would I want to do? what do I want for my bday?
I dunno and If only it was that easy to get it.
Urgh
mood: blank
listening to: Sabi - Sugar
I'm wearing a mask. Its fun to hide things but it'll hurt so much when you're alone. I hate it when I think about. I wish I had homeschooling to drown my sorrows in. *sigh* I love work. It helps me forget things. It helps me cover it up even more. The first week of this was the worst. But no one seemed to notice. I had to tell Nada for her to find out. I told Nikki. She told me I was in love with him. I can't be. I don't want to be. Fuck. This is just... I don't want this. I know it'll never happen. I should get over him already. Hey, I'm trying. Now, I really am covering it up. They don't even notice much. Umm... at least I don't spoil the happy atmosphere. LOL. Happy. I wish. Its soo easy for me.... To fake it. To fake the whole thing. To fake my smile. To make my eyes look happier. To keep my voice stable. I'm pretty happy with myself. I wonder if I can smile when the worst pain comes. I hope I can. I shall test myself.
Lets see what happens.
This is going to be fun.
listening to: Sabi - Sugar
I'm wearing a mask. Its fun to hide things but it'll hurt so much when you're alone. I hate it when I think about. I wish I had homeschooling to drown my sorrows in. *sigh* I love work. It helps me forget things. It helps me cover it up even more. The first week of this was the worst. But no one seemed to notice. I had to tell Nada for her to find out. I told Nikki. She told me I was in love with him. I can't be. I don't want to be. Fuck. This is just... I don't want this. I know it'll never happen. I should get over him already. Hey, I'm trying. Now, I really am covering it up. They don't even notice much. Umm... at least I don't spoil the happy atmosphere. LOL. Happy. I wish. Its soo easy for me.... To fake it. To fake the whole thing. To fake my smile. To make my eyes look happier. To keep my voice stable. I'm pretty happy with myself. I wonder if I can smile when the worst pain comes. I hope I can. I shall test myself.
Lets see what happens.
This is going to be fun.
Monday, June 2, 2008
Contest on DA
mood: ADD
listening to: essence - dali
I'm joining this 'Band Contest' on DA and I'm having a hard time coming up with everything.
Theres a 200$ prize and the band photos aren't really great. But I'll to do something.
Time to update my manga.
listening to: essence - dali
I'm joining this 'Band Contest' on DA and I'm having a hard time coming up with everything.
Theres a 200$ prize and the band photos aren't really great. But I'll to do something.
Time to update my manga.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
konbanwa!
mood: okie
listening to: pretty queen - zwei
Just came back from my niece and nephews birthday party!! It was fun even though it was a kiddie party! the Host who is gay is awesome! I'm not in the mood to mention what we did and crap. ._.
listening to: pretty queen - zwei
Just came back from my niece and nephews birthday party!! It was fun even though it was a kiddie party! the Host who is gay is awesome! I'm not in the mood to mention what we did and crap. ._.
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