*sigh* how many times can a person get hurt in a day?
Oh happy day. Life is such a wonderful thing. So desu ka?
a short entry for a short day.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
BP
Mom is worrying me a little. She feels dizzy and she says she feels like someones strangling her. High bp. Since Tita Susan took her day off a little too early. I'm stuck with the house work for a bit. Dammit it Nasser hurry up and finish eating. I have a headache and I nearly puked out my dinner again. I hate puking.
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ItachixNaruto. I didn't see that one coming.
LxRaito. yum.
Renjixichigo... *giggle*
SaixNaruto. too much angst meh luv it. lol
fan girl moment. I just wanted to randomly replace vague emo post.
LxRaito. yum.
Renjixichigo... *giggle*
SaixNaruto. too much angst meh luv it. lol
fan girl moment. I just wanted to randomly replace vague emo post.
yellow
mood: happeh
listening to: ym im alerts.
I don't know what I did to deserve this fate.
It seems to happen to me every time. I'm starting to grow really tired of it. I don't want it to happen again. Its too much.
Well, I should really start getting used to it. You'll be feeling it for a long while so get used to it already.
I hate wanting something I can't have. Its stupid. Its pointless. Just stop thinking about it already.
Gah... I wonder how long I can last being this way before I end it.
I finished Zettai Kareshi and the ending will make u cry. Remind me never to watch dramas that involve love for awhile. Its too much for me. >-> Oh happeh day. *does alittle dance*
listening to: ym im alerts.
I don't know what I did to deserve this fate.
It seems to happen to me every time. I'm starting to grow really tired of it. I don't want it to happen again. Its too much.
Well, I should really start getting used to it. You'll be feeling it for a long while so get used to it already.
I hate wanting something I can't have. Its stupid. Its pointless. Just stop thinking about it already.
Gah... I wonder how long I can last being this way before I end it.
I finished Zettai Kareshi and the ending will make u cry. Remind me never to watch dramas that involve love for awhile. Its too much for me. >-> Oh happeh day. *does alittle dance*
Kareshi 2
Its soo sad. How can... gah. *continues watching Zettai Kareshi*
Random thought of the day:
I wish I had the guts to cry.
Random thought of the day:
I wish I had the guts to cry.
Kareshi
mood: *grin*
listening to: TIME GOES BY ~ VAMPS
I want one. I really do.
anyways, I woke up several times before I actually woke up. I'm so fucking exhausted. Stupid Double periods. Making me lose a lot of blood. Mom's gonna take me to the hospital soon. Not today but sometime next week probably. I hope they don't need to stick something up there. I can't even think about it without getting freaked out.
I kept on falling asleep in the car. But when we reached home I didn't feel sleepy at all. I'm just really weak.
I took as shower and the bruise on my thigh is freaking annoying. Its been there for a week now and its seriously getting on my nerves. stupid bruise. On the bright side I looked good with my wet hair on the side. hehehe. *claps hands*
LMAO. I have A.D.D. atm.
look what I found!
all those bored moments. I'm vain when I'm bored. haha!
this is me today! A.D.D. kills.
THE INTERNET IS BEING FAST! WOHOO! I CAN FINISH Zettai Kareshi today! Woohoo!
listening to: TIME GOES BY ~ VAMPS
I want one. I really do.
anyways, I woke up several times before I actually woke up. I'm so fucking exhausted. Stupid Double periods. Making me lose a lot of blood. Mom's gonna take me to the hospital soon. Not today but sometime next week probably. I hope they don't need to stick something up there. I can't even think about it without getting freaked out.
I kept on falling asleep in the car. But when we reached home I didn't feel sleepy at all. I'm just really weak.
I took as shower and the bruise on my thigh is freaking annoying. Its been there for a week now and its seriously getting on my nerves. stupid bruise. On the bright side I looked good with my wet hair on the side. hehehe. *claps hands*
LMAO. I have A.D.D. atm.
look what I found!
all those bored moments. I'm vain when I'm bored. haha!
this is me today! A.D.D. kills. THE INTERNET IS BEING FAST! WOHOO! I CAN FINISH Zettai Kareshi today! Woohoo!
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Yaoi
Usually I would be all chipper and add the mood and listening to parts of my blog. But hey... when your depressed u don't want to do some routines.
I've been talking to him since 11am. I'm surprised we're not even bored of each other yet.
We had a convo that really hurt me. I brought it upon myself but it still hurt. I never admit this but I will anyways. I cried for the first time in almost 2 months. I feel like a weakling. Even though I didn't cry for more than 2 minutes. Nada was in the room. So I had to keep it low. But whatever. I shouldn't have cried. I never lasted this little. 2 months? what the fuck? I usually make it to 6 months then I cry for a bit and build that dam again. I guess I'll never beat my 2 year record. After what happened between me and Moe I promised myself I would never cry I again. Oh lookie lookie... whose got the wet trails of tears on her cheeks. Gah... oh whatever. Pain is just pain and tears is just another part of it.
Big smile there Naj! Keep that spirit up. You've gone through more than this shit by yourself. I'm sure you can handle what is to come.
I've been talking to him since 11am. I'm surprised we're not even bored of each other yet.
We had a convo that really hurt me. I brought it upon myself but it still hurt. I never admit this but I will anyways. I cried for the first time in almost 2 months. I feel like a weakling. Even though I didn't cry for more than 2 minutes. Nada was in the room. So I had to keep it low. But whatever. I shouldn't have cried. I never lasted this little. 2 months? what the fuck? I usually make it to 6 months then I cry for a bit and build that dam again. I guess I'll never beat my 2 year record. After what happened between me and Moe I promised myself I would never cry I again. Oh lookie lookie... whose got the wet trails of tears on her cheeks. Gah... oh whatever. Pain is just pain and tears is just another part of it.
Big smile there Naj! Keep that spirit up. You've gone through more than this shit by yourself. I'm sure you can handle what is to come.
Zettai Kareshi
mood: joyful *weird*
listening to: time goes by ~ VAMPS (random comment about the song: Hyde-san in Vamps is awesome. The guitars are awesome)
I'm planning to finish watching Zettai Kareshi today. They'll be deleting it from crunchyroll soon. Theres something going on with the sub masters of SARS and crunchyroll. Pretty messed up shit right there.
I could barely wake up this morning. I kept on... gah. What totally sucks... Mom doesn't notice me at all in the mornings. We're all sleeping in one room. (me, nada and naser) She wakes them up and then walks out. T-T Hello! I'm here you know... Whatever. I wake up on my own anyways.
After watching tv with Dad and siblings. I noticed mom was missing. She was downstairs cleaning the car. If dad found out she was he would force us to go down and help her. >-> I dropped dead on the futon. Sleeepppyy...
Hehehe You mentioned me againz! *huggles* Yay for me. You better wake up soon. Marathon! woohooo!
Damn... I love this song. I want to play it on the guitar now. *looks for tabs* Dammit. Its still new... >->
I'm currently reading an airbrush painting tutorial done by my senpai! She Pinay and awesome. Her art is just AWESOME! It needs more attention.
I'm planning to enter a photography contest held by Gulf Weekly. Yea... I have a little skill in Photography... just a little. But I think its good enough. Gosh... >-> I have to work on my CV.
listening to: time goes by ~ VAMPS (random comment about the song: Hyde-san in Vamps is awesome. The guitars are awesome)
I'm planning to finish watching Zettai Kareshi today. They'll be deleting it from crunchyroll soon. Theres something going on with the sub masters of SARS and crunchyroll. Pretty messed up shit right there.
I could barely wake up this morning. I kept on... gah. What totally sucks... Mom doesn't notice me at all in the mornings. We're all sleeping in one room. (me, nada and naser) She wakes them up and then walks out. T-T Hello! I'm here you know... Whatever. I wake up on my own anyways.
After watching tv with Dad and siblings. I noticed mom was missing. She was downstairs cleaning the car. If dad found out she was he would force us to go down and help her. >-> I dropped dead on the futon. Sleeepppyy...
Hehehe You mentioned me againz! *huggles* Yay for me. You better wake up soon. Marathon! woohooo!
Damn... I love this song. I want to play it on the guitar now. *looks for tabs* Dammit. Its still new... >->
I'm currently reading an airbrush painting tutorial done by my senpai! She Pinay and awesome. Her art is just AWESOME! It needs more attention.
I'm planning to enter a photography contest held by Gulf Weekly. Yea... I have a little skill in Photography... just a little. But I think its good enough. Gosh... >-> I have to work on my CV.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Day
DAMN! Today is like the greatest day in my entire life! I mean YAY ME!
guess what you guys..?
One of my fav unknown bands disbanded. Aint that great?
Just another awesome incident to add to my GREAT day.
Oh where do I find a HUGE jar to fill it up with my overflowing joy!
guess what you guys..?
One of my fav unknown bands disbanded. Aint that great?
Just another awesome incident to add to my GREAT day.
Oh where do I find a HUGE jar to fill it up with my overflowing joy!
ignore
mood: T_T
listening to: air
Dad is in a bad mood and its scary to be around him at the moment. He just came in and told me to search for colleges online. Then he walked away swearing in arabic. I don't like this.
I don't know what to do. I want mom to ask the school I'm already if they know any hs colleges. They should know. I asked her to do it and all she did was laugh. This is not good at all. Theres a slight chance if I don't find anything I might end up going to AMA and I don't want to.
I know I'm old enough to do shit. But still. Okay. I don't want to waste my parents money again by forcing false hopes towards myself and them. I hate myself for being this way. I just want to freaking jump off this stupid house already... To end both my parents disappointed in me as well as my own hopelessness.
I've noticed now a days people don't seem to be listening to me much. I'm saying something and all I get is silence. I try a couple of more times and its still the same thing. What the fuck is going on? Gah... maybe everyone just has something on their mind every fucking day.
This problem between them will hopefully be fixed. I know it would. If only she would just get over the fact that people can change and they will change. She just needs to accept it and suck it up. I'm sorry to say this but she is being such a spoiled brat. I still don't get why shes so fucking mad at him. I don't see it at all. So what... he grew an ego. Big fucking deal. Hey... at least he didn't go and change so freaking much he never wants to acknowledge your presence. There are worst things and he didn't steal me from you. I am no ones property dammit. This is fucked up.
Stop being stubborn. I know I'm supposed to understand her more but I still don't get it. She doesn't have any hidden agendas, that I know. Just... gah. Get it fixed already. I'm sick of you being all sour faced every time I mention his name.
I'm really glad you don't read my blog.
listening to: air
Dad is in a bad mood and its scary to be around him at the moment. He just came in and told me to search for colleges online. Then he walked away swearing in arabic. I don't like this.
I don't know what to do. I want mom to ask the school I'm already if they know any hs colleges. They should know. I asked her to do it and all she did was laugh. This is not good at all. Theres a slight chance if I don't find anything I might end up going to AMA and I don't want to.
I know I'm old enough to do shit. But still. Okay. I don't want to waste my parents money again by forcing false hopes towards myself and them. I hate myself for being this way. I just want to freaking jump off this stupid house already... To end both my parents disappointed in me as well as my own hopelessness.
I've noticed now a days people don't seem to be listening to me much. I'm saying something and all I get is silence. I try a couple of more times and its still the same thing. What the fuck is going on? Gah... maybe everyone just has something on their mind every fucking day.
This problem between them will hopefully be fixed. I know it would. If only she would just get over the fact that people can change and they will change. She just needs to accept it and suck it up. I'm sorry to say this but she is being such a spoiled brat. I still don't get why shes so fucking mad at him. I don't see it at all. So what... he grew an ego. Big fucking deal. Hey... at least he didn't go and change so freaking much he never wants to acknowledge your presence. There are worst things and he didn't steal me from you. I am no ones property dammit. This is fucked up.
Stop being stubborn. I know I'm supposed to understand her more but I still don't get it. She doesn't have any hidden agendas, that I know. Just... gah. Get it fixed already. I'm sick of you being all sour faced every time I mention his name.
I'm really glad you don't read my blog.
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