indignation.

What have I done to deserve the selflessness that you treat me with? Have I done anything utterly vexatious to deserve this downright immaturity play that you never were. That loathsome entity has done so much more to you than I ever did. Do you honestly think I fall under that belt of obnoxiousness? Do you contemplate with integrity, that I am able to downgrade my maturity level enough to utterly betray you? I haven't had the rightfulness to even try. That is after all what friendship is, right?

Have you always been thus? Have you always been a duplicitous and inscrutable asshole, with the ability to change the mask you call your face, around others? You two-faced dick.

I'm disappointed and most of all I'm hurt.
You're nothing but one of them.

Making up for experiences

I'm involved in:

• Essay writing for 'Environmental Awareness'
• Cheerleading for sportsfest
• Designing Posters
  
• and so much freaking more.
  

I'm excited that I'm actually being really active.
It makes me feel so productive.~ w00t!

Anniversary

One whole year yesterday!
I love you hun. ♥



I hope we'll grow as a couple and will continue how we are now but with a little awesome kinks in between. ♥o♥ Hehehehehe. *hugs*

Picture above is of Ani our new addition to the family. ^^ Given to me by you know who.

Inspiration ♥

Inspiration (c) Najla Qamber

To be inspired is great, but to inspire is an honor
- Najla Qamber

2010 Typography

Decade (c) Najla Qamber
Image (c) Najla Qamber

Since DA doesn't work.
I'm going to post this up here.

Let me explain this little piece of art.
Decade, is created to look vintage since 2010 is a mark of age. Another year ended another year begins. Basically, We're getting old.

Stroke

Started this a few days ago. I was inspired to draw with color pencils so I did. I'm not very good at it. But I tried! I'll try again soon.

For now, I'm going to finish designing my 2010 Calender. I'll show you guys how it looks after I'm done with all 12 months done.

a/n: for some odd reason I drew yomis eyes a little softer than the pic. dang it. T-T I always do this.

i -.- ed

My unofficial last entry of the year.
This year was an eventful one, worked, college, & Kal.

Theres more to it.
First off, would be Kal.
January 13, Our first date and the beginning of a wonderful relationship. I wouldn't change it for the world. I wish I could say more. But I don't have the writers sense right now to continue on.

Work.
May 31st, I resigned.
After wonderful 8 months of being an Intern doing a Junior Designers work (YAY), I've learned so much and I thank you all who was a part of it and I miss you guys too. T^T Most of you left already. T^T.

College.
OMG! Finally, my phobia is no more and I'm glad. I've finished a semester and I'm proud! YOU BETTER BE TOO. I haven't gone to school since I was 8.

Renz&Naj Day!

It happened! Hahahahaha.


That is all.
Not in the writing mood right now.

Cold

Cold (c) Najla Qamber
Image (c) Najla Qamber

I'm cold, really cold sometimes. So cold that no one can ever think its me thinking those heartless things. Revenge is sweet, yes. But anger mixed with that. Damn, its too much. I hate it when I'm like that. Its like I can't think of anything else to help me ease my pain and all I want to do is inflict it to that one person who is hurts me constantly. Can I be that heartless? or am I just that angry at people who hurt me? I've thought of it so many times and I'm not very proud of it. Not very proud of it at all. I feel as though its gotten worse each time. Well, frankly, its cause I don't do shit to ease it. It just has to go away on its own.

So much of being me. So much for being that kind, supportive, guiding person everyone knows.
Theres always a second side to someone right? that side behind the sweetness or the side behind the bitterness.

To feel it constantly is like slicing your hand so deep that you could see the bone and to feel that blood flow is like the tears that never will give itself to fall. "Never" it says "Never will I give in to the temptations of an heart felt pain" it continues "Nothings going make us jump" it finishes.

Indeed don't commit that saddening sin that is suicide. Its never worth the tears, or pain. For when it does fall when it does commit that sin. The tears will feel like boiling hot lava piercing its way down my cheeks. It burns too much to stop the tears from falling. It won't stop. It'll never stop.

I can see it. The coldness.

I wish I was without that flaw.

Spring of Culture Talent Competition

Hopefully I'll get chosen. I'm joining in the visual arts category. (Painting)
Since they don't have Computer Generated Arts I can't send out my manips. sadly. T-T

Zephrina

We found her at Uni, actually Katie and Jp did.
She was hit by a car and had a broken leg. We saved her and Naz took her home to feed and mend her. We took her to the vet. He said there was nothing he could do. It was too late. She didn't survive long she died this morning. There was nothing we could do.

R.I.P. Kitten Zephrina