little things that make me smile

unfinished.

I once dreaded the moment when a sudden revelation dawned on me which brought me nothing but apoplectic and self disappointment because I became those I hated the most.

But the little things I did for self amusement changed that all and made me smile. I have more to live for than just those who bring me sadness and pain.

I deserve more and better.
Art truly brings me freedom.

[VTOP] Blue Bloods - Revelations

Title : Revelations
Series : Blue Bloods
Volume : 3
Author : Melissa Dela Cruz
Hero/Heroine: Schuyler Van Alen
Werewolves : ----
Vampire : New learnt powers!
Witches : ----
Gods/Goddesses : LUCIFER!
Hotties : Oliie! Olliiieee! I hate you Jack. Go die!
Sexual Tension : Meh.
Romance : "I love you" Princess Leia said. "I know" Han said.
Fight Sequences : Loads. I loved the whole exciting bit where loads of ppl get... okie. i won't spoil.
Deaths : 5 - 6?
Teenage Angst : OH the angst! *Dies*
Comments : Revelations is so much better than the last 2. The excitement and how everything is explained, it makes you go. I KNEW IT or OMFG. Though, I hope I can remember it all when I read the next part.
Stars : 6/10 stars.

bruising

i won't bother with capitalization or anything uniform and correct. I'd rather stay random and spontaneous just this time.

spending the entire week wondering why the damn hell i was left feeling like a boring fuck from each side of my shoulders. Am i not interesting? or did you all just turn mute? i see people turning away and walking off with their sorry excuses that i always tend to shrug off. do i smell or something? am i really that boring or do I have a large pigment mutation growing on my forehead thats starting to gross people out. it seems as if i'm the only one trying my best to conver and entertain. what am i doing wrong?

i'm trying to be as positive as i can with my current situation and ignore anything that comes into my mind about these things that seem to keep on reoccurring. but i can't help it. i'll always think outside the box and end up putting myself down. there i go again blaming myself for doing nothing wrong.

ha. i enjoy writing here. no matter how much hurt and annoyance i dip into these words, no one will step outside their comfort zone and ask me if i was alright. i should call this a diary and not a fucking blog. meh.

there was only one person that always reacted to my pathetic little dabbles. but hes not here anymore. hes somewhere far and barely a phone call away.

it amuses me how i read and end up not being mentioned at all. how nice. did i really not happen to pop up in your life? ha.

i wonder how many bruises will be inflicted before i write something like this again.
i hope it takes forever because right now, i loathe the negativity. but its not something you can just run away from especially when everyone seems to keep on catapulting your positive fortification.

The Need Series by Carrie Jones

I just recently got into a new series. This time with pixies!
Its just page turning. You can't stop reading it. It has a creepy feeling to it.

I can't wait to read Entice which is the 3rd installment to this and is coming out on December 2010. Hopefully, I can get it here on time. Bahrain needs more bookstores!

[VTOP] Blue Bloods - Masquerade

Day: 22
Title : Masquerade
Series : Blue Bloods
Volume : 2
Author : Melissa Dela Cruz (still kinda feel awkward cause shes fili)
Hero/Heroine: Schuyler Van Alen
Werewolves : Something like one but not really. They're called silver bloods.
Vampire : Things are getting complicated, people are getting nightmares and crap but they're not like super superhero.
Witches : None.
Gods/Goddesses : Abbadon, and Azrael
Hotties : Meh, hot yea. Oliver! and that dude... Kingsley.
Sexual Tension : Its coming up. ^^
Romance : the romantic tension is there. I want to kiss you noo... I shouldn't cause it'll ruin us. Blah blah.
Fight Sequences : not so much, but its still there.
Deaths : 1
Teenage Angst : nearly nothing.
Comments : I liked this part better than the 1st because there was a masquerade ball where pretty cute stuff happened. Sorry, I can't remember so stuff because I read a pixie book after. This series is kind of meh. I prefer HoN.
Stars : 5/10 stars.

[VTOP] Blue Bloods

Day: 14
Title : Blue Bloods
Series : Blue Bloods
Volume : 1
Author : Melissa Dela Cruz (shes a Fili! bwahahha)
Hero/Heroine: Schuyler Van Alen
Werewolves : nothing so far.
Vampire : Okay, this is one interesting kind of vamp. They're called Blue Bloods (yes their blood is actually blue) anyways, when they die naturally their memories and knowledge are saved into their blood until they are born again. Its like a century old USB! bwahahahaha. ^-^
Witches : None.
Gods/Goddesses : More like Archangels like Michael and Gabrielle and crap.
Hotties : Meh, hot yea. Dylan, Oliver (I think hes gay) and Jack.
Sexual Tension : Between a few.
Romance : Its not getting there yet.
Fight Sequences : Not much of it yet.
Deaths : 2
Teenage Angst : Not much either.
Comments : This was a pretty good read, I liked how Angels were involved, they're very rich and kind of like Gossip girl minus the drama and plus the vampires. There's no angst just yet and I love how everything is fixed starting with the Plymouth embarking and the Croatans and how they find out they're a blue bloods. The thing I didn't like was the whole fact that sometimes within blue bloods twins marry one another. Thats gross. -.- Lol.
Stars : 5/10 stars. (because I want to read the next part)

Movie list! (to download)

I want to download more movies. T-T

10 things I hate about you
Napoleon
Marie antoinette
Copying Beethoven
Bedazzled
Sleepy Hollow *yay*
A room with a view [2008]
Music from another room
Music of the heart
Dear John
Jarhead
Pretty in Pink
Inception
Sex in the City 1 & 2
Sisterhood of the traveling pants 1 & 2
Funny Lady
Obsessed
Land of the Lost
Monsters vs alien
All about steve
Love happens
Ninja Assassin
Serious Moonlight
Secret to Moonacre
Caramel
College
Cats and Dogs the movie
G force
(500) Days of Summer
A Christmas Carol
Horton Hears a Who!
Original Sin
Wuthering Heigths (2009)

I can't think of anymore.

[VTOP] House of Night - Burned

Day: Lets start back to 7 and then I'll actually count the days. ^-^
Title : Burned
Series : House of Night
Volume : 7
Author : P.C. and Kristin Cast
Hero/Heroine: Zoey Redbird
Werewolves : Non-existent!
Vampire : The Red One is someone to admire. Shes so nice. Stark is so honorable and strong and shizz.
Witches : They get to Scotland and you'll find a whole different power. So cool.
Gods/Goddesses : Nyx keeps on showing up. Poor Kalona so freaking heart broken.
Hotties : Rephaim! REPHAIM! REPHAIM AS AN AMERICAN INDIAN! REPHAIM! STARK! HEATH!
Sexual Tension : Somewhere near the end and between the beauty and the beast.
Romance : The beauty and the beast start to feel something between each other thats beyond their blood bond and more is to come from Stark and Zoey.
Fight Sequences : The one with the bulls was so awesome but the Kalona made arena was just FULL ON COOL.
Deaths : 1 + I dunno 4-5?
Teenage Angst : Boy issues for the red one.
Comments : Now, this is annoying. Its the last book that came out so far. I can't wait for awaken. I might buy it for myself. Anyways, this Volume was amazing. I especially looked forward to what happens between Rephaim and Stevie Rae. I think they're my favorite pair since Stark and Zoey which was fairly new. Some many things about this book I really really liked. But I rather not get into the details because they'll be spoilers for you guys! ^-^ This series is highly RECOMMENDED!
Stars : 9/10 stars.

[VTOP] House of Night - Tempted

Day: 6 (3 days after I read Hunted)
Title : Tempted
Series : House of Night
Volume : 6
Author : P.C. and Kristin Cast
Hero/Heroine: Zoey Redbird
Werewolves : Non-existent!
Vampire : Stark is such a great vamp. Erik sucks as a vamp and Darius is just *-*.
Witches : They're more powerful now then ever and Jack (giggles) Electron gift from Nyx? Seriously?
Gods/Goddesses : A Nyx incarnate and her consort Erebus. BULLSHIT. Go die Neferet.
Hotties : STARK! STARK! STARK! STARK! STARK! STARK!
Sexual Tension : Not much. But theres a lot of fluff. But the raven boy part was kind of ewe.
Romance : -.- not much.
Fight Sequences : Some, but not all. More like struggle and stuffies.
Deaths : 2
Teenage Angst : Boy issues, over and over again.
Comments : This was a good read. I loved how so many things started happening and all that it made me feel all O_O thats so cool and shit. Stark and Darius become extra special to their girls and Stevie Rae gets buddy buddy with a rave dude. I'd say OMG! I love this. But the ending sucked. I hated the ending. If you're reading this volume you better have the next book ready for you on your shelf.
Stars : 8/10 stars.

[VTOP] House of Night - Hunted

Day: 5 (didn't read until like 3 days later, so that does count)
Title : Hunted
Series : House of Night
Volume : 5
Author : P.C. and Kristin Cast
Hero/Heroine: Zoey Redbird
Werewolves : Never coming!
Vampire : Neferet is such a bitch. Shes getting more powerful and its pissing me off. She needs to die!
Witches : They're beginning to learn how to use their powers more fully.
Gods/Goddesses : Mr. Lucifer gets kicked to Timbuktu.
Hotties : Darius, Stark, Heath, Kalona. Oh and fuck Erik he is so uncool.
Sexual Tension : Here and there
Romance : O-O
Fight Sequences : Birdies are really killing right now. Its not even normal. They're creepy.
Deaths : -
Teenage Angst : Still vague
Comments : I don't remember what happened much cause I went through this book and then to the next and completely forgot to write this and got confused on which book says what. It tends to get confusing when there are too many volumes. But I love it either way. Anyways, this book was so exciting and the amount of people having near death experiences is really making me go all O_O and all X-X. Oh yea, and Kalona is just -.-'
Stars : 5/10 stars.