( ; _ ; )

mood: insecure

listening to: Nikki talking about Gackt.

-details of the actual events come tomorrow. I want to vent-

Went to Seef and realized that I won't... sorry I will never have a boyfriend. EVER. I only had a chance with Kobby but Its not fair to Kobby cause I don't love him back. I am completely, completely hideous. I don't feel good about myself. Nothings coming to me and I just choose to live on like I don't that. I might aswell die. But no... I don't have fucking guts to end my life. I want to cry. I'm completely pathetic. I'm never going to cry. I have no life don't you dare tell me to get one.

I can't wait to die.

I need Edward (; _ ;)

I wish edward was real.


God hates me (._.)