Scannage

mood: *crying on the inside*
listening to: 裏返しの善意と一欠片の愛 - RED

I'm currently bending my new pages of my new magazine to scan it and crap. *cries* NOOoOoOOOO! well, I care only 50%. I'm scanning it for Jscans and Jforum. Someone is lazy to scan the whole thing. Sheesh....

I'm currently downloading crimson tear by sadie. I can't wait to hear how they sound like.
Yesterday I watched 3 episodes of Attention Please. Its a kool Jdrama.

My fucking school didn't email my mom back. they're probably too busy preparing for the graduation.

OMG! Crimson tear just finished downloading!!! *_*

I'm sad you know... cause theres no one to talk about Jrock with in person. Nada, sometimes doesn't care unless its alice nine. or sadie. or one ok rock. or other bands shes obsessed with.
Umm... oh well... Once a lonely person always a lonely person.
I wonder if I can get Renz to like Jrock if we ever see each other again.

Okay.... Me and Nada was watching mtv pulse when this german band *they sang in english and i only found out that they were german when I googled them* called cinema bizarre looked soo fucking jrock. The bassist looked like Reita... his name is Kiro. He is soo hot... the vocalist kinda reminds me of Bill Kaulitz. They're influenced by jrock. its pretty kool. I want to buy their cd now.

I'm probably the most trivial person ever. You can easily pick me out of the picture and no one will notice I'm gone.

I wonder if I can publish my novel anytime. I need to find a publisher. Maybe writing can be my occupation since I'm soo fucking not independent and I'm not exposed to the outside world.

Omfg.... v_v
I'm listening to Jpop... Arashi just came on my itunes... why did I download it again?

Last night I was thinking about Nasreen and how trapped she is cause she got married so young and ended up falling out of love for jj. Now, they can't get a divorce cause they got married in the philippines. Divorce doesn't exist in the Philippines.

I'm scared to make the same mistake. I can't imagine feeling trapped... feeling soo caged... If I ever make the same mistake my parents will probably disown me. I promised I wouldn't.... God. Now, I think I'll never get married. >_> who the fuck will be crazy enough to marry a girl who is not even existing on the surface of the earth.

I wonder whats it like to actually go out with people you've just met on your own. Not people I met through family. I wonder if i'll ever do something crazy.*sigh* I think I already did. I screamed at the fucking assholes who hit my head with a ball on purpose. That was pretty crazy. I had no idea I had so much caged anger. I swear I think I'll kill someone the next time they get me really angry. Advice from the writer to the reader. Never suppress your anger. Thats one piece of advice i'll never listen to. If I'm angry I take it out on myself. I wonder why? I'll let you know the next time Yasy teams up with Nasreen. *thats usually when I get seriously fucked in the head* Bestfriend and your old fav sister can be your worst enemy sometimes. especially when they're both in a very bad mood. Sure you can take it out on me. But don't do it all the time. Its bad enough my mom and my father does the same thing. *they're sooo LOUD when they vent on me* I wonder who'll listen to me. *thinks to self* I don't really need listening. do I?
Oh Whatever... Its not like anything interesting happens to me. I'm boring (*w*)つ


Note: Crimson tear is AWESOME!! so is heartless *headbangs*