カル・ヴァリ (Kalvary)

Vocals - シネマ (Sinema [ex-Dari])
Bass - Ko-ich [ex-ARTS]
Guitar - 牡丹 (Botan[ex-Dari])
Guitar - Takashi [ex- ARTS]
Drums - 英治郎 (Eijirou[support drummer. ex-DEUSE, Juka support drummer])

Ex dari! Yo! I love dari. wooohooo! I have their whole disco. too bad they disbanded eh?
New random band that I saw over at shattered Tran...
Great site to find new Jrock bands. Okay, This will be added to my list of Jrock bands.
I hope they wont disband and crap. I want to listen to their music. But i cant find anything. so It looks like I'll have to add this to my list of bands to get cds of. okay, that doesn't make sense.
I'll have to go to their live to get cds. Boo... I cant go to japan. :( so soon enough they'll release cds all over China.

Prints, Japanese and random stuff

Listening to : ^
Mood: I have a headache.

OMFG! I just found out how Saga made out with Shou, kissed Hiroto and molested Nao on fucking stage a loooonngg time ago. ;__;

I've been writing shit loads of romaji meaning in my flowery japanese notebook.


I've been trying to sell my art on DA for over a month and no one has bought anything -__-;
I hate my life.

I've noticed that my whole library contains about 4 GB of Jrock. Meaning I spent shit loads of money on downloading Jrock. >_<
all I listen to is Jrock ^_^ I'm soo obsessed.

Mall +Bass + Arabic lessons + Manga + Food

Listening to: core - danger*gang
Mood: shity >_>*


Went to the mall yesterday at 16:00. For weldons birthday. We were the first ones there. Went to the CD store, 'why do I keep going there when I already know that they dont sell Jrock' I hate the middle east. then we went to the bookstore!! YAY! I <3

He waved at everyone! hahahaha and the Shark is sooooo ANNOYING! he pretended to fall on us and he scared the shit out of my sister and cousin. It was funny.

We stayed in the front of this cafe, calling everyone to ask if they were at mall yet. seriously people are late.... We stayed there for a few... looking out the window, taking pictures randomly. So I can add them to my scrap book. Since I have no life.


Look shoes! Mine are the clownly red ones. I love clowns. >_< The circles

After that came out wanting to go in again. >_> it was fun. then we went home. and I died on my bed. >_> actually I changed cleaned up, put stuff away then died.


anyways I'm working on this random landscape drawing, just for practice. Its all pink. I dont think it would be right to violate the references artist by showing off what I copied. >_> Yeah, I used large amounts of pink and black. >_> color pencils RULE!

SHIT! I'm suppose to me drawing a manga page. >_> I have to update tomorrow. >_>
first page. I started a comic to improve my anime skills. It has worked so far.

Look... its me. (22-11-2007)

^_^ I currently got into Sugar and I couldn't stop listening to them
OMG! Gackts is my shous wallpaper.


I dont think I've ever posted a picture of my bass here. anyways.
I should seriously. Finish tabing Selfish love. >_>

My uncles went fruit shopping!!! >_>



Umm... Chicken Curry. I haven't had that in a looooong time.

woooah... Dejavu. I've seen this scene like when I was 12 or something. weird..... >_>

I'm going bowling with sisters. >_> I'm gonna kick their asses!!

poetry with pictures + O2R full album being shipped

Its 14:00

and I'm holding my diary, getting ready to write whatever I wrote her in there.
I burned shit loads of cds today. and discovered Sugar the band. >_> now I can't stop listening to them. They sound soo awesome. same goes with abingdon boys school and gossip. GOD! I love my life.

Cdjapan shipped off my copy of O2Rs first full album yesterday, I should get it on the 26th or on the 3rd of December.

Time for poetry.


direction

"direction...
I don't have it...
I have no direction in life
nothing left to live for
no reason to stay
no reason to hope
no reason to be strong
no reason to fight
no reason to pull open curtains
to walk through butterflies or woods
no reason to continue walking to no where.
I give up
I have no direction"

-Naj

white flag


I've been talking to myself,
My thoughts fixed on one goal
freedom
my feet takes me where I wanna go
It knows what I feel
HE knows what I feel and does nothing
I've been fighting
I've been losing
I am tired and scared
I hold the white flag of surrender to God
and left with the wind
never to be seen again.

-naj


Okay I'm done for today!!! I'm going to write this down in my diary.

.....

downloaded and burned moon child successfully. cried successfully for the first time in over a year. i'm never crying again.

there are people who hate jrockers and jrock in genereal and it sux. it offends me badly it HURTS me badly. jrock is part of my life. If they offend them they offend me. I bleed like there is no tomorrow. why am I this way? its cause, jrock keeps me going. without it I wont be here today. I would have been dead in my bathroom floor. suicide sucks. but I've tried. but stopped being emo.
lets say music saved my life.

I still have no direction in life. I'm waiting for God to make a move.

nothing happening still. If nothings happened by the time I graduate from school, if He hasn't put a path infront of me yet. I'm gone. and nothings going to change my mind.

Nothing.

Umm... reminds me of the time when my cousin, my sister, my brother-in-law. All teamed up to kick me till i'm bleeding inside. I swore at them and walked away. It hurt so fucking much. I couldn't hide my anger but I sure can hide my tears. Hmm... How easy it is to deceive. and I always end up saying sorry. always I.

Oh how much I wanted to step infront of the large truck that passes our neighborhood.

Oh the pain, the kin causes.
Oh the scars caused by then.
channeling pain and anger is soo emoish....

GOSH! I'm a happeh dandeh person! with my cold eyes and large grin.

Oh how I miss those time when all we do is play and laugh and not caring about anything.

stay strong
stay with jrock
wait patiently
and you'll get where you want to go naj.

Patience is all you need now.

I'm BACK!

Look where I stuck up my A9 poster...

here I am, teary eyed after watching gackt die in moon child. Now, I'm silently listening to birdcage. I'm such a fangirl -sniff- -sniff-

I came back from shopping for my cousins back home. My uncle is leaving on Saturday, which reminds me I should seriously write that letter for mommy du. >_< look at the notes I have to learn how to read. I'm learning on my own accord of course.

Look its jin from serial number. I love his hair... I just started. I spent an hour on the eyes... > >

look at the shit I do everyday. lets seee... I've got my arabic and japanese lesson books, my drawing book, my shou, my hiro(phone) and my orange self produced dictionary. yes, i'm writing a dictionary. I know Im nerdy.

WTF why do I have to make a new blog??? + takeru drawing + introduction + blue finger

OKAY SERIOUSLY!!!! did someone hack into my other one or something this is my Original blog http://whiteinmisery.blogspot.com/ I mean I wanted to update my blog with the exact email I was signed in google with and BOOM! i had to do everything all over again. You know what? my fcking blog is still there! it would've been better if it got deleted instead of like it lingering there not being updated!!!! I'M SOOO FUCKING PISSED!!!

Intro.
Ola meh amigos.

I am Naj,
Pencil/Digital artist who is also in a band as the Vocalist and bassist.
I love Jrock btw.

I'm looking for pictures of sadie on LJ for my sisters T-shirt design I'm going to make her.
The internet is being slow and I'm guessing my older sister is downloading movies again. (-__-)
I'm listening to ruri no ame by alice nine while posting on jrockheaven.freeforums.org I love that forum its so much fun there. and I'm bitching like fuck at the same time! and I'm trying to fix this fucking problem!! GAH!!!!

anyways My drawing book is filled with Jrockers. Lol.

heres my latest jrock drawing Takeru from SuG.
I pretty much like this. I love how I did his eyes. It took me like an hour to do. -faint- (T_T)

足連れ　たける!!　（＾３＾）

I love my keyboard! I learned how to programme it into Japanese! so I can type Katakana and hiragana.

This injury was cause by a certain car door that I hate with a passion. Tuesday afternoon, as usual during Ramadan. I and my mom went to pick my little siblings from school. I was reading like usual when I transfered to the back cause I was sitting in the front seat. while closing the car door I sorta closed it on my thumb I didn't feel anything I just pulled away my finger without opening the car door. slowly the pain came to me and I was in so much pain, and all I was thinking about was how the hell am I to draw, photomanipulate, digital paint or play the guitar. I was striped of my right hand thumb for a few days until I gathered the guts to go to the doctor. I was so fucking depressed I couldn't do anything without my fucking thumb. I wanted to cry every time someone mentions that I couldn't do what I love the most. I was crushed. and in great pain. My nail turned blue and it died, then the blue stuff(blood) ended up spreading all around my finger, I got scared and went to the doctor and crap. Dr.Sanjay an Indian doctor, he was nice so I wasn't so afraid then he told me that he'll be drilling holes on my nail without numbing drugs and crap, then he said "don't worry u won't feeling anything cause the nail is dead" and I said "but the skin underneath the nail isn't" in my head though. then he started using this small needle and drilling then he said "Nurse, can I have a bigger needle" thats where I got scared. I was looking away, he drilled like 4 holes before he found the right place where most of the blood came out, then there was blood everywhere! he bandaged it and we left the hospital. After like 2 days my finger is still leaking blood and all and I cant really use my thumb much, and the nail is going to outgrow the dead one probably in 6 weeks. or so. （－＿－） Hopefully when My thumb is no longer blue I'll be able to do stuff with it. Maybe it wont be blue next week or in a few days. And finally the hole stopped bleeding and my mom being weird and all stared pricking my finger in the blue areas around the nail. and my finger started bleeding ALOT! and no change what so ever. (><) I hate my life.

GOD!!!!!! I SERIOUSLY HATE MY LIFE!

I bought suspenders on monday and it looked sooo good with my jrock outfit.